无题

这个世界真的没有所谓的公不公平的事
是我执著要在这跷跷板上找一个平衡点
我并不是妒嫉羡慕我只是不明白
平衡点怎么那么难找
我气得快中风了
你们说我眼红小气妒忌羡慕
有没有站在我的立场想过
你们是否太自私了呢？
友人说：不要理他们
我说：我做不到我真的非常非常生气
比平时的生气再生气个一百倍
我已经冲破了沸点
你能了解是多么生气吗？
刀不割到自己的手你不知痛
你不是我你怎能了解我的心情
一味的坚持自己是对的
好我就是全世界最坏的人
满意了没
友人说不要生气不要理他们
我问心做不到
很想放肆的哭
为什么我要那么委屈
我问了自己一百次为什么
始终没有个答案
好想有个肩膀和拥抱让我放肆的哭
好让我知道我真的没有错我不是一个人
这种感觉好想一次过抽了一百支烟一样难受
为什么

notice!

im thinking of moving my blog to wordpress...privacy needed...i saw ppl viewing my blog from some place that there is no my friends from live traffic.im not really like it..so i dun care whether ppl reading my blog and make myself like a prooooooofesional blogger. all i want is privacy!! thankiu babes.. will update my wordpress at my fb..have a nice day =) adios

home sweet home

hola babes..i was going back to my hometown on last week right after my class!im actually planned to go back by bus with my beloved roomie.BUT,some sad incident happened.so she went back on last monday. Her auntie passed away..*deepest condolences to her and sorry for her loss* so i stayed at my room alone..sigh..its lonely.finally i knw how it feels..because i always left my roomie alone in the room.TT.well,so i called home and my papa said he will come to fetch me^^ he is nice.dont u think so?i think he should get the best papa award!i think my family is happy to c me too. we went for supper during the night and my mama made some pancake for me during the teatime session. aww..i love my mom..eventhough she loves to nag me all the time.. last but not least..the most noty baby on earth..ningning!! she is getting more n more noty!! she slapped my dad n i...a 2 years and 3 months old baby slapped her grandpa and her auntie!! so noty.but ended up, she apologised to us. she pulled her ears and said sorry mei mei ahyi!how can i mad on a cute baby like her? haha.today is the second day i go back to malacca.but i miss them already.is this homesick? *grin* well..probably will go back on the coming weekend too! ops.that is another MUST DO thing that i did when i went bak to my hometown..i went to secret chicken place with my besties! all of us have the same interest! we just simply love secret chicken place..i wont tell u where is it since it is SECRET CHICKEN PLACE! we have some yumcha and chatting session. we quite enjoyed it. haha will update about the past weekend in kuantan. stay tuned will be another long post. adios babessss

Weekend in bahau

hola peoples.. im going to spend my weekend in bahau.my dad went to fetch me back yesterday..he is so good ,right?and finally i can hug n kiss my lovely niece cels.she is still adorable as usuall. hmm..i feel so comfortable at house..haha. well, this is a short update. stay tune. adios!

Kuantan *love*

HOLA my loves,this will be a long post!be patient k?I went to kuantan on the weekend.Kuantan is my joe's hometown and also my 1/2 hometown (this is wat joe used to say) *wink* i never went thr alone before.i was actually plan to take the most early bus.But the ticket was out of sold,so i gotta take the 1030 bus.the stupid bus is very very uncomfortable.imagine that u have to sit in a very small and uncomfortable seat for 5 1/2 hours..its very torturing.i reached kuantan at 4 or 5 something.i was reali exhausted.i watched the funny show with him but i falled asleep on the floor in his living room. i guess his family had saw my ugly sleeping pattern. *i have veryvery ugly sleeping pattern.for more info,pls ask my beloved roomie*but its a very very short 45 mins nap oni. after that we went to dinner wit his yi ma gu jie at swan restaurant that around the blablabla hotel.i dont really remember wats hotel isit.joe was able to bring me for a short walk at the megamall before the dinner.p/s : the megamall is reali very mega...its something like mahkota parade but its abit bigger than mp. the dishes that night was so so~ i love the salted chicken the most.=)soup of the dinner is shark fin soup.. i was like omg ==~ i tot will oni have shark fin soup on wedding dinner or blablabla dinner.but its not bad!after dinner auntie ivy dropped us at tc! wats tht d? teluk cempedak? its a beach ,or i should call it seaside. watever la. its like a mini size danga bay!the beach is much more clean than our west cost 1. the sand is soft and clean, dont even have lapsap like our west cost port dickson!we went to tc2 too! we walked along the seaside.of cz there is a small bridge. but its very dark.it makes me feel like jungle treking!! tc 2 is quite romantic actualli.cz there is many many stars in the sky tht night.*we had a short paktor with his cousins at tc2~* after joe's mama sent his cousin home, she dropped us at just relax cafe! this is where joe used to pou wit his friends.that night is a very first time i meet w his hometown friends.well.. his friends is FUNNY and FRIENDLY!i love his friends.after a short yumcha session,fai suggested to go to pek zou since its weiting bday!! *i always suspect that weiting is a girl!! dont u think that his name sounds very girlish??* haha.OK that night was a very first time that i went to the uncle style karaoke!its reali very uncle style 1!the one shot king mr fai keeep one shot.ends up drunk and vomit at another friend's car. i cant stop laughing everytime i saw this one shot king.he is very funny!The second day which is SUNDAY!me n joe supposed to go to breakfast with grandma.but we woke up at noon.fai was already wait us in the living room.so i do a very quick wash up and go out with them d.The boys brought me to a ~ food stall.they said the wat dan hor there is the wat dan hor that BEST in kuantan.guess wat? i shouldnt believe wat kuantan ppl say! the watdanhor is just so~ so~ ..bahau watdanhor is much more nicer than tht!after that we went to east cost mall to buy ticket for karate kids! east cost mall is just like new jusco in malacca! we had nothing to do after we bought the ticket.so we went to red flora cafe to yumcha and rest and wait for the bday boy bang gang~i gotta say that karate kids is reali a very nice movie..but the ending is reali so- so~ after movie we went to red cafe for dinner! the lamb chop there is damn nice. even i dont eat lamb i also think that is very nice ~ The third day which is MONDAY!we didnt went anywer~just stay at home and went to sherwood's with auntie ivy family..If i went there wit empty stomach, i definitely will try the paste n chop there.bcz it looks tasty!but me n joe already taken our dinner at home. after that , we went to coffee street to yc! coffee street is wer those boys used to go at night!they suggested to go lam ming shan on the next morning.so that i can go ~(i nvr been thr b4 and i always call joe to bring me thr) we will go at 4am ,reach thr at 5am, come down at 6am,and take breakfast at thr after tht and go back kuantan at 8 or 9am.because some of them have to work at 9 or 10am.. its crazy right? but in the end ,we didnt make it!because some of the boys cant wake up. so this plan cancelled..actually i didnt care much cz im very tired too.haha..who wants to wake up on 4 and go to climb hill?? im not that healthy n hardworking!haha..i actually heard that when joe is calling his friend.i was like~ phewww luckily~ i want to sleep so badly!so i continue my beauty sleep and woke up at 12 something~ joe bring me for the famouse kuantan chucheongfun before i leave. wat i can say is bahau chucheongfun is the best in malaysia! no1 can fight!i leave kuantan at 230pm and reached malacca at 9pm..7hours omg!! exhausted yet fun! its not boring to hang out wit the boys..they are funny!~ i cant stop laughing everytime i went out wit them^^ mr joe i will c how u treat me la..then i only decide whether the kuantan 2nd trip is on or not?haha~~ adios

iM excited

HOLA babes!If u read my previous blog,u will know that my family n my second uncle's family dont have a good relationship.We had a big quarrel at the time before my granpa passed away.This family is all bitches and assholes.Well~ include the fking papa mama of the family.im shame that we have the same surname.okie..today when i woke up from nap,my mom was so excited.excited like she kena toto.she told me that my so called cousin sister is getting married.and i was like oh my gawd..because she is only 18/19 years old.My mom and i laughed like crazy.im sure she is pregnant.Otherwise,a normal 18/19 years old youngster will not get married so earli..so,This bitch is getting married..im so "happy" for her mom.i hate all of their family.the mom,the sis,and the bro.especially the fking bitch.(her elder sister) yucks..so,as ur cousin sister.im here to "congrats" u....... wish u have a "goooood" husband,a "loyal" husband,"happy"marriage,


P/S : Sakai YT said she cant leave comment in my blog. i already fixed the setting.i think should be ok now.


ADIOS!!

ben dan

ben dan !!! i am saying that to myself and to my queen as well... hehe... i know that i say that i hate blogging... but i am willing to change it for my queen... i will blog on forever to make my queen happy.... and the reason i call her ben dan is bcuz... (u r the king just because im the queen and i let u to be my queen) u write wrong things liao... u should say "u r king just because im the queen and i let u to be my KING" haha... okie.... blog again soon ~